Lost in translation

It's such an arse thing when my thoughts can't be translated into words. Feelings are worst, intangible, messy and ever-changing. And it just spins and swirls in your system and you feel like you want to bang your keyboard like the gory emoticon in MSN until you bleed. No, I'm just kidding.

But it's pure frustration when you type a few words and hit 'delete' and loop that action to a million. It's like an inadequacy of words holding you back; like an 1 year old toddler who can't put across feelings properly. Pain? Cry. Hungry? Cry.

(Speaking of that one-way translation how do people ever know what that baby wants! It might have an itch on its head and all it gets is milk or a change of undies. Assumptions adults make for convenience sake and for the self-consolation that they are able to do something. Waaaaaait a minute, why am I so harsh. It's the psycho-dramatic mood.)

Ok this is scary I am even answering myself!

I can only lose myself in songs, music therapy! Just cleared my iPod of all trashy songs, now I can shuffle without skipping any song. 100% enjoyment though some may look on my playlist in disgust. They never do understand, ha ha. Well it's not entirely radio-friendly.

I feel free now, gave myself 2 off-days from studying to get back my energy. Recuperate from my 3 papers while Physics students slog it out *woosh* I just realized today in Biology revision class today that we are all the only ones not taking Physics in the whole DHP level! And I'm in the minority who takes History. Only about 10 people in the entire level takes my combination. Special.

Why am I raking all of these up!!!

See I wanted to type about something but I forgot. My phone bill is going to explode. Oh my gosh I remember what I wanted to type about!!

I drink a lot of water when I am studying. Or when it's nearing tests/exams. Or in the middle of it for the matter. Like a few cups at once! Constantly thirsty. It's good. Um, clears the kidney and.. Osmoregulation? It doesn't sound right. No keywords no concept. Just reminds me my head is hollow and rings clear of emptiness. Better fill it up tomorrow morning when my off day is .. Off.

I just spent a long long time talking to myself here instead of sleeping. It's not exam stress! My phone bill is going to explode really. I can't lock it up, unless it's a keypad lock. I just laughed out into the night at myself.

I feel dead-ly funny. Like I've just compressed myself into a paperthin.. paper. Feel sucked out of energy and life but yet still here surviving on water. VODA VODA Water for life.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAA OMG.

Save me really, my night persona is acting up.