I'll never stop this train
Just felt like I ought to make people not stop tuning in to this space. Though I feel the lack of activity in life is the reason for the lack for updates. Found a song that hit a spot close to heart though.
Just 2 more days before we all trudge back to conundrum. It's not that I really hate school, but sometimes it's so far and many times when walking to the station I would just scream "I want to teleport home straight away!" And by the time I reach home I'm exhausted. It doesn't help that this year is the important year. I worry each night like I'm in the "end-of-year status". Not good for health.
Speaking of health, it wasn't in my cards for consideration ever. Until I said something along the lines like, "I don't see the doctor so often" and boy, the heavens took me for my word and made me see the doctor 3 times in the short span of 3 months. Pfooi. Now I'm like this ageing lady I had to stop and rest countless times when I was having lunch. Imagine! Eat a bit, rest a bit, eat again. I can't walk much too, have to sit down to "catch my breath". It's terrible, really.
Anyone realized how beautiful the weather is today and yesterday? It was entirely good it swept me off my feet I kept exclaiming how beautiful it is. I'd love to take a walk but my body didn't permit. Although I kept hoping it'll rain spectacularly (maybe tomorrow) because I need a bit of excitement in my life (yes, it raining makes me excited) Sigh whatever, what is an ageing lady to do.
But I read up on something cool though, thanks to M's "unquenchable thirst for knowledge". Came across this in a book too actually, Pandora's Box. In Greek mythology, Pandora was the first woman. Zeus ordered Hephaestus to make her as part of the punishment of mankind for Prometheus' theft of the secret of fire. According to the myth, Pandora opened a container releasing all the miseries of mankind--greed, vanity, slander, envy, pining-- She shut it in time to keep one thing in the jar: hope. The world remained extremely bleak for an unspecified interval, until Pandora "chanced" to revisit the box again, at which point Hope fluttered out. Thus, mankind always has hope in times of evil.
Loved the last sentence. What a beautiful myth to try to explain why we have evil and hope.
Oookay I think I've blogged long enough. Ageing lady feeling a little washed out. Shall turn in, but before that, a song with good lyrics! Go read into it and figure what's the train. Meaningful and speaks what I mean to say.
Stop The Train -- John Mayer
No I'm not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
I try to keep an open mind
But I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?
Don't know how else to say it
I don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own
So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said" help me understand"
He said "turn sixty-eight"
"You'll renegotiate"
"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
And don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train"
Once in a while, when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
Till you cry when you're driving away in the dark
Singing
Stop this train I want to get off
And go home again I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train
