Life's lessons

Sorry if I'm not too trusting, but having once been bitten I'm twice shy. Sorry I'm quiet, but I'm biting my tongue holding back words I might fire. Sorry I'm too harsh and critical of every small movement, but it happens in my subconscious. I am prepared to overlook, I'm prepared to forgive and move forwards but try as I might, I cannot forget. But I can swear, with every single word that comes out harsh and judgmental, I feel equally rotten inside. And nothing can convince the rot to reverse and heal except the power to accomodate. I'm trying and so are you. Let's just keep it up.

I keep forgetting the lesson I've come to understand -- Accept people as they are, and not be too fierce and intent on changing them. I can't impose my wants on others. I can accomodate.

Thank you for those who constantly keep me back on track and level-headed when I teeter to the falling end. I suspect I'm becoming Darth Vader. I lost all goodness in me, together with poise and becoming irrational.

And even as I sigh convinced I'm letting out some burdens into the air, my heart just gets heavier.