Overwhelm

I feel these four walls closing in

Face up against the glass

I'm looking out

Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast

How do I turn this thing around

Is this the bed I chose to make

There's greener pastures I'm thinking about

Wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair

To face the fear but not feel scared

Wild horses I wanna be like you

Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too

Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to

I wanna run with the wild horses

Run with the wild horses
I see the girl I wanna be

Riding bareback, carefree

Along the shore

If only that someone was me
Jumping head first, head-long

Without a thought

To act and damn the consequence

How I wish it could be that easy

But fear surrounds me like a fence

I wanna break free

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This song was written for me. Every word, stanza, every meaning it wants to put across is the exact reflection of what I'm feeling now. And it means extra special because I always had a thing for horses. I was born in the year of the Horse. Hee haw.

There's a certain longing, a certain feeling within me that I badly want to put my finger on, but I just don't know what it is. Am I struggling to get out of this rut? Sick of this routine that has become so unfamiliar? Or am I waiting, just waiting for nothing in particular, but for something to happen. Or tired of having to plan for this and that, calculate GPAs, tired of worrying what will happen to me in the future. I'm scared.

Ahh the song is really what I'm feeling now.