Goodbye.
It's funny how I used to dislike someone, and even started this movement called ZXAAA (Zhi Xin's Army Against Auron) which sounds really silly looking back. It's amazing how someone (Mr Kiw) can use simple words, everyday examples and his patience and time to change someone within such a short span of time. It's heartening to see that person change, from arrogant and superior to someone humble and even friendly. It's funny how I could dislike someone to the point of being so furious at him, and then be sad that he's gone.
6 months, that's the short span of time 3F'06 has been together. And yet, we seem like we have been a class for more than 6 months. The time just flies so fast, so fast.. And I can barely seem to stop for a moment to breathe. Everything is seemingly in fast forward. Auron entered into my life by his message on the wall on the first few days of school: We need thinner -Auron & Alex. I saw it after school after everyone has left because I had Year 1 orientation. I got to know him further and I dare say he didn't leave a good impression with him violently objecting to painting the class green. I saw him as arrogant, a troublemaker, someone who is stubborn instead of firm. He went by what he thinks is correct, and often, he is unwilling to cooperate. I was angry, I wanted to rebutt, to critisize, to make him wake up. And Mr Kiw did all those.
And yet, I saw a very different person today and yesterday. All the arrogance is lost, and for the first time, I'm seeing him, I'm really seeing him. In a whole new light, he seems to be a new person, a different one. It's really sad to know, someone has entered your life for a short period of time and is leaving. I might never see him again, we might never hear of him again. We sent off someone who is willing to do anything to do what he wants with his life. We sent someone off who is firm with his dreams and his aspirations. But it's hard to accept the fact that maybe he's gone forever. And when he comes back, he might not be able to see us all, to find us as a class anymore. Separation is hard, it always is.
But at least I know, someone made a difference in my life in one way or another. At it's comforting to know that somewhere, in some part of the world I have an acquaintance, a friend. Maybe my tears were tears of joy, because I'm happy he has finally accepted us as a class, as friends, and not noisy people incapable of anything. I'm really glad everything turned out fine in the end. Now we're a class, we really are.
After today, I've grown to love 3F even more.. More than ever. Shit I forgot what I wanted to blog about cause I was crying so hard I needed to heave for air. ... Okayy I've grown to love 3F much much more, because I've tried so many things with them. I've learnt so much more, I've seen so much more. The times we have had are so dear to me, and I can see many more such memories in the one and a half year to come. When I was in 1C/2C, the first year was a blur, and the 2nd went by so fast I only cherished less than half a year. As for now, I'm going to savour every 3F moment and keep them close to my heart.