I am only as strong as my team

These days have been drop-dead tiring but very satisfying. I've been reaching home at 9+ most of the time but trainings have been very fulfilling at least! It's really much easier to move forwards once there's a certain passion and commitment all of us have. Was quite optimistic about U16 but there's some bit of devastating news today but we can all overcome it I'm very sure about that! I've complete faith in you guys and so you must have faith in yourselves :D

I think I've really grown stronger emotionally! Took to the news quite well, didn't even break down during the matchplay today which I'd have done if it happened a year ago maybe. Ok so I teared a bit during Math afterward but that's about it. And I didn't worry the night away about the lost key, which I found.

Something very touching about having the teachers training as hard as us too. Apart from their daily teaching commitments they make it a point to both turn up for trainings (and train us/ train with us) Like Mr Ng today who did PT with the guys and stayed with us till very late yesterday to train with us. And Mr Tay who came despite being sick (Yes, me and you too Mel :D) And Mrs Bok who's morally giving us support I'm sure, playing our nanny.

The 3 of us are pushing ourselves very hard now I'm sure. I sometimes wonder if I set my limits to beyond the sky. I forget sometimes I'm not made of steel. Shall take a rest tomorrow. Imagine playing volleyball 6 days a week and doing PT at home. But we really need to work doubly hard to help bring up the team! It's very heartening to see Ade improving sooo fast becoming so good, Vanessa being super super encouraging and hardworking, and Wanting trying her bestest! All the way :)

Hopefully then, we'd all be healthy and recovered and in the best state possible to enjoy the game and also gain experience. This is our first test people, after that we look to next year and work 10000x as hard during the holidays to prove that we can, as testament to our hard work :D

Haven't been preparing much for the Os like I should. Maybe tomorrow then. Really need the rest already. If not I feel the onslaught of a fever. School's been ok, gave up being attentive halfway throughout partial fractions. And vectors made my mind go blank. Many experiments to be done, and Mock UN which honestly scares me. I'm even busier it seems, after the exams.

So will this go on forever

Because I'd gladly take it

Stop it never

But I can't help

Thinking what are we

Waiting for

I'm scared of myself

All the doubts (re)surfacing

Is it arrithymia

Or is it you

I'm just waiting, watching

To see when

Will you knock on my door