Musings

So I stumble home at night

Like how I've stumbled through my life

I've been behaving abnormally as of late. My appetite has become voracious. Okay, I always knew I ate a lot, but once in awhile it'll turn scary like today, 3 portions of dinner, with a lot of food in between meals. And I tell you, one portion is like a mountain high of rice + dishes. And I ate a bowl of noodles right after dinner.

I was really cranky today, because I just had my dental appointment yesterday and hell, the dentist tightened my braces more than before and had some screw thing up to put rubberbands. Owch. But being a stubborn/headstrong girl who really wants her food.. I just gnawed through everything with much gusto. The braces weren't really much of a problem, it's just the huge ulcer at my lips that turned me into a grouch. And.. I'm still hungry, help.

I feel a lot of things inside me lately too. Like various thoughts (random or not) pertaining to any thing but mostly my future, and damn I do not like this feeling at all. Carefree wasn't really in my dictionary, I'm a worrywart since I was young.

I remember being terrified of being caught by the police. I was dumb and naive and I thought by accidentally dropping my barbie doll collection onto the floor thus creatng a loud bang, I'd get caught. According to my Mum I asked "Will the police catch me?" at an average 20 times per day. Oops, I digress.

Yes I'm a worrywart, worrying and being uptight about everything that turns out to be fine in the end. Sometimes I really feel like I'm going to have a cardiac arrest or faint from not breathing properly.

Ok I feel myself being labelled angsty, emo and depressed. *Bares teeth*

And I end up disappointing everyone down the road.