Curse you people!

I am very good at controlling to prevent any breakdown. The sense of urgency needs to be there when doing something. Good planning and the responsiblity that you are supposed to undertake. We can't spoonfeed you every single event we do we're supposed to guide but now it seems like you are just mannequins and we pull the strings because it's so passive. And when the burden falls upon me when it's not supposed to so why do I feel obliged to suffer.

Long day today. Wasted an afternoon throwing javelins and discus when they are not my event and played volleyball and went home late and I realised I had music lesson at 830 and I ate my dinner there for half an hour before reaching home and checking the progress and realising nothing has been done and I feel so frustrated I feel like taking the phone beside me now and smashing it into the TV just to break something. Maybe I feel like breaking my head now. I'm freaking so truthful typing every single thing I feel at this very moment because there's no other avenue and I'm preventing a breakdown.

I have to go for high jump training tomorrow and study for math. I want to do math now. And it's like half an hour to midnight and I'm thoroughly tired. Merde. Zut the world. I'm resulting to curse in French however crude merde might sound but I'm like this close to screaming my ass off.

Yes you reading I am cranky and I want to do my math.

I'm really angry now my head's through the roof. Managing my anger nicely but I see myself killing people in my head.

Peace out, yo.

(The irony)