You're the one mistake I really didn't mind

I lie down and blind myself with laughter

A quick fix of hope is what I'm needing

And now I wish that I could turn back the hours

But I know I just don't have the power

For once in a long while, I finally feel awake. Maybe it's sleep, maybe it's just that the truth dawned on me and the recent mistakes that I've made has come to light. Maybe it's sugar. But in any case being in a good state of mind has helped me come to terms of what rubbish I've been doing, and also the depth of the mistakes I've made. Thank God it's still not too late. But I doubt this clean slate of mind and soul will last me through today. But I'd just plough on.

The future excites me, have I mentioned it before? Yes, I want to mention it again. I feel excited. The thought of what awaits, the thoughts of what I can and will do, the thoughts of the world opening up for me and then seeing it like it is excites. Imagine the possibilities. I'm so tempted to tell you all my uh, fantasies of sorts. Or is it just a flighty dream. But it's so naive and ridiculous I'm afraid you'd laugh. I think only Eugene heard of it, fullscale. And he didnt laugh. But I think I'm getting too carried away with what I want to happen in my future I'd be mightily disappointed if it doesn't. So, please please please let it happen to me.

And I recommend you go hear Plane by Jason Mraz. After listening to it for many times I'm still enthralled by the sheer magic of it. It's full of emotions, the music is haunting. And it all comes together to form a wonderful combination. The song is just sad.. It's sad. I contemplated quoting it when we were on the plane going back to Singapore from Kanchanburi. It isn't exactly auspicious huh, we're on a plane and we're listening to a song about if the plane goes down. So well, I suppose, it isn't the best time to try break superstition is it? But in any case, if the plane I'm on really goes down..

If the plane goes down, damn

Well I'll remember where the love was found