Hmpff.

I wanted to put up a blog poll on whether I should change my blogskin because I found some nice ones on Blogskins. I thought I oughta bring some change once in awhile instead of letting everyone come in here and remind them to "Take A Chance" and go kill somebody.

Anyway, some interesting points to note: Chester is really nice to talk to, though he really makes me confused sometimes. But he's actually real funny and the convo's always hyped.

And then I woke up early today, maybe because I really wanted to go for the history thing in school, but my head was aching and my throat was sore. So home I was to stay. Grandma went back to Indonesia today and she gave act smart bro money. I think $50, the usual. She probably didn't give me because I was half-asleep and heck-caring everyone in the world because I can't talk properly. But money's beside the point anyway. Hope she comes back soon. She will I bet, in a few week's time. Hope she brings Alicia or Samuel.

And then when I was surfing through Blogskins I had a really frustrating time (As usual) looking for nice ones. Most of them are either anime, "I hate love because you broke up with me" or stuff with really cheesy taglines. I don't like anime :\ And I have no reason to be emo and hate love.

I saw this sentence over and over again in many skins "You are only who you are when you are alone." This is not word for word but, hey, you get my point. I mean, that doesn't make sense. Let's say for example, me. When I'm not alone I'd be listening and talking and being crazy. But I'm alone I can't be listening and talking and being crazy can I? I mean, it'll just be creepy if I start to listen to someone when I'm alone. And talking. For your info, I don't talk to myself. Aaand I can't go crazy when I'm alone, like start laughing and all right? Then I'd really be insane.

Then take for example.. a murderer. If he goes around killing people, then what does he do when he's alone? Kill himself because there's no one else around? I mean it doesn't make any sense.

If according to my logic, the phrase only applies to lunatics, for they talk to themselves when they're in a crowd and do funny actions, and they do that too when they're alone.

The phrase should be something like: We all have a wild side. Or.. Ok, just forget about the whole thing altogether. Just my two cents' worth.

I'm going to cook Macaroni and Cheese for my lunch, since I haven't eaten that in ages. And my maid doesn't know how to cook it and my mum's out. I never liked my mum's M and C anyway. It's too, Italian. With what funny rosemary stuff and what-have-you. I like mine, thick, liquidy and plain. It's real easy to cook anyway, and the only thing I've benefited from 2 year's worth of Home Econs.

And it's funny how many people know I am so crazed over volleyball, like I'm always psyched over trainings and all. I mean, even Chester. I had like, a tiny heart attack when he mentioned how I love volleyball as to how he loves basketball. Wonder how he knows. And there's Fudi, who said "Still crazy over volleyball?"

The fact is, I still look forward to trainings and all, but I kind of doubt whether I still have the passion I used to have. I'd probably not know in the near future because all we do now is PT and PT, and not one game and techniques. I want to train up my techniques Coach!

And also because the Sec 4s are no longer here, I can't see for myself how good I am or set a benchmark for myself. I used to rely on them to get the points up or win the game. I used to rely on other people during group presentations to come up with some funny or brilliant. I used to rely on people during group work and all.

Till this year I realized I can only rely on myself.