This is the direction

I just caught Little Black Book on HBO. And in some ways or another, I suddenly realize what this, what life is all about. Maybe I don't know the full works, but I have a whole life in front of me to search and understand. When I die, I probably still won't get the whole story, but I definitely will know more than I did, and I'd be thankful for that. Maybe if I'm good I'd get to meet God and ask him about it. But until then, we can't know it all.

"Perhaps luck exsists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance, and the peace that comes from knowing that you just cant know it all."

Some people view life as all about winning, about new clothes and being fashionable, about good grades, about finding love, getting high pay, getting rich, famous, successful. But I feel real joy when I get another piece of puzzle to this whole huge picture, a step nearer to truly understand what this is all about.

I get blown away by lyrics or movies or books when certain emotions or thoughts get conveyed into words. It's just so beautiful and romantic in a sense. It gives me a clearer picture and to see thoughts and emotions so accurately it creates such a great impact on me. I want to immerse myself in such romantic poetry -- Lyrics, music, great movies and books. I want to learn to express myself the same way as they all do, and let it nourish my soul on the finer things in life.

"We write our own stories and each time we think we know the end... We don't."

But I often forget things around me are already capable of doing these. The rain after the clouds darken the sky and pelt the world with heavy raindrops is just so soothing to me and gives me an inner peace of some sort. Laughter, family, friends are also capable of nourishing our soul. We often overlook that.

It's funny that once we get so caught up with life we get thrown off course and blindly follow society's expectations and the way the culture works. Then we forget what this is all about. We die not bringing anything with us. But what counts is the state of heart, mind and soul. Die contended knowing we have achieved something in life, or mourn that we are leaving the items or success behind without being able to bring them with us.

"There are moments in life when you hope your decisions weren't rash. And moments where you just know. "

John Lennon said, life happens when you're busy making other plans. I don't know what I want to do when I grow up. No plans, just blindly focusing on handling the present. I fantasize about the future I sure do but what are the chances of it happening exactly the same way as I do? I'm not a fighter, I really am not. I can't ensure myself that I'd achieve what I want, for sure. It's like a paper boat, just letting the waters carry it to wherever. It might sink, it might not. But I suppose, that's the beauty of life -- Destiny.

"Life's funny like that, once we let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong."

I believe in destiny. The way Earth works is a miracle in itself. Flowers, human body, technology, math even. They all unravel to us in subtle ways, all make some kind of connection, some kind of logic of a higher order, some sense. Like in Signs.

But after all, even if we feel down. Or stressed when everything comes tumbling down. Or when we get angry or feel joy. Or when we realize the truly, what love and life is all about. Or when we see how Earth is plainly getting destroyed by no other, but by us (and by that the world unites in a single cause to prevent that) ..