Unplugged

If it's the fact that it isn't within my capabilities, I'd have just let go and not take heart. Mais, I've been there! Damn I'm like dying I don't even know what is wrong with my head. I want my fruit parfait kitkat badly.

It's times like this, not even a long long shot of rain, not even a million clowns, not even Jason Mraz nor John Mayer, maybe not even volleyball can put self-inflicted thoughts out of the mind. Times like this even the computer refuses to cooperate.

Joakim Gomez doesn't have the substance but he has the drive, which is actually good in some sense. I should mourn the fact I totally have neither.

Ah, a semi conundrum is happening within myself. I need a personal tutor and a psychiatrist-cum-clown.