And the chaos that's in me

I found a new soul mate: Me.

I realized I keep talking to myself nowadays and it goes something like:

"Okay, Chemistry done, let's move on to Math! Must buck up and do your best. Breathe in and out. Whoops I feel tired now, let's a take a break as a reward."

I might become a psychonut. Seriously, I get the jitterbugs doing anything, be it watching TV when I'd jump up after 2 minutes and rush back to the room to study, or eating very little during dinner because I think there's no time and then stuff myself silly afterwards at 11pm onwards. I promptly when to weigh myself. I think my metabolism is being ripped away every single minute of my life now. Just over a few days ago, I weighed 50kg, the next day, 51kg and now, 53kg! Now own up, who has been sabotaging my weighing scale! My maid says it's probably because I just had lunch. Yoshinoya has nice takeaway boxes. The miso soup is still hot after an hour probably.

It's totally chaotic this year when the end of years arrive. I mean, we aren't even done with math and chemistry, much less call for revision. I need salvation from it, really. Any longer than 6 October I might not be able to hold on.

Oh no oh no oh no oh no oh NO I wasted approx 8 minutes typing all those above! And it's not making me feel better! There goes blog therapy! And I can't do music therapy too, waste of time and I don't play music when I'm studying anymore. Anything other than the sounds of me talking to myself, the air-con and the flipping of books is deemed as unnecessary noise which affects my concentration.

I think I have a problem. I keep drinking in a lot of water like glurp slurp glup smup OH IT'S FINISHED LET ME GO REFILL! I know it's healthy, but it is really weird to be constantly thirsty. Maybe I should request for a water cooler. I think I might be ill. Wasted another approx 3 minutes typing all of the above.

I should stop, somebody, help.