I swear Melissa's going to start her rant about how much strain is put on the eyes when she reads white words on black background. Rant on, ye old pipe.
Training was fairly comforting. At least I didn't lose all my skils entirely after so many days of no training. I think I might be happy playing the outside position all my life. We all improved, and the weather was good and all, perfect. I had quite a bit of a work out.
I realize I do many things on impulse. Have you ever had this funny feeling when you're standing miles above ground? I can just be outside the SC room looking at the round garden in the middle of the school, and my legs would have this tingling feeling to jump. No, it's not suicidal. I just want to feel how is it like to jump down. I keep having this feeling when I look at the ground from far above. Thank God this part of me called sense keeps my feet planted firmly to the ground.
Ah, I get reminded of a quote:
Show me a girl who has her feet planted firmly on the ground, and I'll show you one who can't put on her jeans.
-Anik
It's from this book but well, sorry for that bit of digression. Yeah, I'd think over some decision I have to make for a long long time. And suddenly something in my awakens and I just make a rash decision because I just couldn't bother to jam my brain system thinking about what I should choose. And I spend long moments thereafter praying my rash decision wouldn't let me regret. I haven't regretted yet, I should think. Other than some unimportant matters. It's the same with asking questions. Impulse. What a thing to have. And if Mr Impulse doesn't come for work in my brain/heart system, I become hesitant, fickleminded and I'd really waver between choices, weighing pros and cons, seeking advice from other people. It's a weird thing, really.
I hope I don't act on impulse anymore. I don't want to regret someday. Like, having the impulse to jump (and die), entering marriage on impulse, shoot my mouth off on impulse and land behind bars, or something much more disastrous, I can't think of anything else.
What will come, will come.
And you'd have to take it when it does.
-Hagrid (I can't really remember)
