Don't think I'm not.

Don't think I'm not.

I had a whole chunkful of blog material in my head this morning and afternoon. But after team-therapy, it all seems minute to me now. I love Melissa and Cherie. They have this special effect on me to make me laugh and laugh from the heart, and not just to appease people. And they do that just by being themselves. I love them! Dinner was good right guys?

And it's funny how I spent the last 2 weeks counting down to the start of the holidays, which is tomorrow. And now it has arrived I don't feel any particular rush of joy or euphoria-- Just relief and a teeny bit of disappointment (cos of windchime, HA HA!) and because of the homework that seems to be piling.

My GPA was horrendous. Wake up call to work extremely hard this June. To briefly quote what Melissa said, "I never believed that friends can make a difference in your personality-- Like the bad influence, like parents always say. But this year it all changes." Ok I totally changed the sentence but the gist is there. Yes I think it's totally true. Last year with the clique (the name too retarded to be shown, HA!) they were all hardworking, smart and .. hardworking people who at least studied. So I was more or less influenced by them. Hello, 2 of the clique is in school based gifted now, 1 was top 3 continuously in 2 years, the other is in TJ and one is in triple! I'm doomed to be an eternal dune. That is, until I work harder. Yes, as I was saying, even if not muggers or anything, at least we studied when we were in Sec 2! But now I'm this major slacker who doesn't touch books nor even make the effort to at least study. And that sucks. Buck up ME!

And I don't want Mr Kiw leaving, though I always have the tendency to have my attention drift away or harbour the intention of sleeping. Don't go! And as for my dream, it's seemingly impossible now. The team is like.. Like scattered here and there. We need someone to salvage us all. And we don't know who that is.

Oh but Hellidays are here (Quoted from Por Yee) and it's time I relax, start studying and do my homework and like, let myself loose on the malls or something. But studying is one of the more important factor.

My GPA must pass and do well and get a GPA (Good Progess Award) like I did last year. That is my 2006 goal, and I shall attain that.

And as for the other 2006 goal, GAH. The volleyball one. I'm too distressed to even talk about it. Must brush up on serving x 1000.

And I think I'm like Santi, the doctor and Grace. I might be stuck in limbo cos I can't let go. But I'm taking it easier now, at least :D

P.S: Think I totally screwed up my iTunes AGAIN, with limewire. Shucks.