You know I'm a dreamer.
But my heart's a ghost.
I think I'm a problem kid. Wrote this down on some paper during math. Flunk my math like insanity, not that I'm surprised. My marks for Chem lifted me up a bit :D Mr Tan and Ms Low were going like: Don't spend too much time on your CCA. I do? I just go for trainings regularly. Not as if I was playing everyday :\
Today we were so hyped up for training we started training an hour earlier, did warm-ups and ran around the school once. I swear Mel's and my blood can coagulate the best :D As in, figuratively. We did so well for receiving! I think it was my best day. PE shirts get in the way. Spiking deproved. Was demoralized. But hell, it was a good training. We trained a lot 'cos the Sec 2s had 2.4 run so all attention was on us for once. Played as a team! And I loved every minute of it. But my spiking deproved like gahhh. I think I'm putting too much pressure on myself. The horoscope in Today says so.
When you move slowly and keep a more realistic mindset, you're able to do so much more than you originally envisioned. In other words, it's time to stop beating yourself up for not being superhuman.
Whoahhh I was surprised. I keep wanting to improve like crazy. But I neglect the fact everything needs to be step-by-step. That is why I get agitated and demoralized whenever I can't spike properly. Basics, Zhi Xin! I yearn to be superhuman. But sometimes, I get pulled down to earth so fast. Too fast.
Anyway, on a lighter note, camp! In 2 days, I'm quite psyched. May I have night walk please! I love night walks! I hope it'll be good (if there is). Last year's one wasn't scary at all. Though I was clinging to Zara for nut's sake, all 5 of us. And the 4 guys who claimed we walked super slow. So 9 of us marching in the darkness huddled together. I saw Mr Siva's 3 stripes on his Adidas shirt while he was attempting to scare us. Not scary at all. Haven't packed for anything. Really looking forward to camp! Grp 19 will be good, I hope.
And my nano is fixed! But the person said we could collect by 9pm today or must collect on Monday. Damnnn. Means no music for camp. Dammmn. Cos she called at 8.15 and my Dad was lazy to drive to town just for my music. Grrr.
EDS Night tomorrow! Going with the volleyballers. And oh I forgot to proclaim my hate for Edna Mode (Name changed to protect her precious privacy). Damn you, rob us of our vball time. Shoo, you.
