Bleak.
I need to be strong and carry on with my life! I'm spurred on. Must work harder. Must lift my spirits up. Must endure.
I skipped running 1.8km today because of my mc. Right, and I told Mr Chew I'm still going for volleyball anyway. He was a national volleyballer. So he laughed and said: Play ball can. Running all these you don't do. Slacked and cheered people on. I was in relatively ok spirits until recess. Received news of the fiasco which I can't divulge, and then I was real scared that something will happen to him. So I was really really afraid and frightened. Then assembly was like, normal.
There was a meeting for sports meet comm during lunch. And oh no, there is this vast amount of work to be done. As soon as possible somemore. Great.
I went to training happy because it wasn't raining and I thought training would cheer me up. Who knew, coach was in a mad mood at the beginning. Like a tyrant. Insanity. Then I didn't play well at all. Because we all lack proper training because of the rain. And I was thinking about a million things and had difficulty getting focused. Couldn't spike a single good outside ball and was really pissed with myself. I was really demoralized, like I couldn't do a single breakthrough ball. Shed a few tears and screamed like shit. Everything felt bottled within and I really couldn't stand not feeling carefree. But it started to rain, and my mood got really bad. Had PT indoors and started to do the physical training furiously in a bid to numb myself. Gah, and hit the ball real hard to vent my frustrations. My right arm was super achy after that. But I ran in the rain and that felt good, as always.
And just when I thought I'm outta trouble for so long, trouble came looking for me, just because we tried to touch the "Admin Office" sign. C'mon, we didn't even touch it. We were trying to. Send our names to the principal? Our Mr Sng is the nicest and the most reasonable guy ever. She said she'd pretend we didn't see her and let us off. So we scrammed. Thanks ah! But I didn't even feel more screwed or anything after this incident. At least Mich Mel and Cherie made me smile (: Team-04 always seem to put everything right. Maybe Eva not so. Hahahaha. Sorry.
Saw CLEP today! Kicked his basketball into his knees. Whoops :X I'm sorry. Must've hurt. Help me remove the screw! But maybe it's gone already.
- CME proj
- Chinese proj (We're dead)
- History essay
- Chem viva test
- Ants
- Parents telling me to eat medicine
- Sports meet stuff
- Sports meet itself (How to jump!)
- The time that's flying past
- My never-stopping cough
- My lousy vball skills
I must endure! And err, emerge victorious!