Bad Day.
Everyone's feeling like crap.
Today is just not a good day for everyone. In class I was so depressed and I don't know, sad. During math, this chinese song kept replaying in my brain, then I felt like I couldn't excel in anything at all. Last time I had some subjects to pull me up, and my volleyball! And now I suck at everything, and my volleyball is so horrible now. Tears just kept coming to my eyes during math, then I'd force it to go back in. Then they'd come again. I felt useless.
After school we rushed to SPANS at ToaPayoh to train there. I felt even worse. I couldn't do anything right today at all. I hate feeling useless. It's like you're standing on court and you feel powerless. I hate feeling powerless and helpless. Then the tears came again. Everytime I serve I'd place all my hope on the ball, and if it doesn't pass the net I'd just feel frustrated and very angry, and the tears come, again.
I'm going to work damn hard in studies and volleyball from now on. I want to go back to Presby next year again. And like, get a trophy in the zonals and nationals. For nationals, it's quite impossible, but hey, no harm hoping right.
Aaand, going home/out/anywhere with Serene is super traumatizing. I won't even dare to post what happened here. It was sucha close shave today. And I have this ultra big bruise on my left hand. Probably got it when I received someone's super hard spike. Ouch.
Mel, Cherie.. Everyone has like cried today cos of many stuff (like, homework) and it's really getting back. Where's the happy me!
And now Michelle has finally, finally seen the light? I don't know, probably saw sense already. And I'm having this urge to cry, again, cos I'm happy? Happy that our team has tried to overcome so much of their personal struggles to strive hard for the team, and to work even harder. I hope tomorrow's morning training will be good. I hope.