Today is one of the days I get pissed off at the world, and silence and peace becomes my best friend.
I was irritable and snappish, snapping at everyone who talks to me. I felt really screwed up, and well, who really cares. Nearly fell asleep in History again until Mr Chiang started talking about how Idi Amin was. Interesting. And, yada yada, the day just passed monotonously. Nothing really eventful happened. Those noisy ones in class are feeling screwed too. And those who are usually not noisy is becoming noisier. Yes, you, HONGWEN. So loud and noisy, argh. The weather was supposed to make it all ok, I love rain and it calms me down. But I guess I was too concerned whether it'll cause my training to be cancelled.
And it did. Double torture: No training. I was waiting for it to vent all my frustrations and unhappiness away. Great, no training.
Did some recording in the auditorium for the 50th anniversary song. We were just SCs, not choir. Why don't they get the choir people to do it and get a perfect song. Some things we never understand.
I've grown more reclusive over the days. And maybe the report that Cherie told us was right. Depression occurs to most of the Sec 3s. I don't even know what I'm depressed about. I am irritated. And the worst thing is the weather is supposed to make me feel snug and warm.
I didn't even open my mouth to talk to my parents after dinner today. Just went back to my room and shut the door, realized my nano had no battery, and a thousand flying stuff around the light. I just did my work in silence.
- Training cancelled
- Bad voice/throat
- Noise
- Flying insects around the light
- Undone homework
- Messy room
- People talking loudly
- My brother
- Me being pissed
- Time flies
Great, I now have a short fuse and all ready to blow up. I'm not talking, and I probably have to wait till Wednesday/Saturday till training comes and I can abandon my frustrations and de-stress. Luckily time flies.